It's a caffeine thing...

I woke up yesterday bright and early for skiing. I asked my dad to take me to get a bagel, and I got one at Bruggers. And I got a nice big caffeinated soda to go along with it. During lunch, I ate some chicken, and a nice cup of caffeine washed it all down. Then, at Zach's house last night, I finished off a 20 oz. bottle of Pepsi.

I don't want caffeine, I really, really don't. Because I go without drinking it for a few days, then I drink too much, and then the next day, I feel all "I haven't had any caffeine" and all I want to do is sleep. It's not healthy to become dependent on something like that for energy, even though I slept for about 10 hours (not very well, but for 10 hours none the less). I'm not nearly as bad as I used to be, but I still don't like the fact that I so easily feel the need for caffeine.

I've been struggling not to drink caffeine since 11th grade. I stopped for months and months, but then got hooked again because of Barq's Rootbeer, which I never realized had caffeine in it because I generally none of the other rootbeers have caffeine in them. Apparently, that's the bite in the Barq's that they always go on about. Then I stopped drinking even that, and moved on to other beverages, but at that point I just didn't care anymore and continued drinking it.

It got bad again this semester when I started drinking Pepsi again. Pepsi is a cruel, cruel drink. It tastes great and it's very refreshing, but it gets me really nuts for caffeine every time I do. And then I drink too much. And then I want more the next day. Like now.

Why don't I want it? Health, mostly. I'm not overly concerned about my health usually, and don't go out of my way to really try to keep myself in shape, but I just don't like the idea of being exhausted because I didn't drink something. It freaks me out. It's not normal. My dad seriously drinks like, 4-6 cups of coffee a day. And they aren't little cups, either; these are large cups of coffee. And without it, he's cranky and miserable. I don't want to be like that.

So, I just tried to ignore caffeine all day. And it's worked, so far.

I woke up later than I wanted to, read some of the usual stuff I read online and did all that, and then started to feel a need to be productive. My room has been a mess since I got my teeth out, so my first accomplishment of the day was cleaning up all the clutter that has accumulated in here since then. Then I threw in some laundry, because that was getting out of hand, too.

I sat myself down and started writing a review, then completely obliterated it and started all over again, and I think the end results were a little better than they were headed. I was pleased with it.

After all that, I decided to actually leave the house. After showering, I went to Mobil and got gas, and then headed down to South Glens Falls and got my hair cut, because it was getting LONG. After that, I went to Angelina's for pizza and came home and watched TV and ate it. It was a good reward, and it made me happy because yesterday I really wanted some pizza and never got any.

Now, I'm off to Zach's, and then maybe Jon's house, and that would be nice because I haven't seen him since...last Wednesday? Or Tuesday?

Hell, I don't even know what day of the week it is half of the time anyhow. I haven't seen him in a while, and that's all I know.