Well hello there

Well, here I am.

Summer is now over and...I'm about to go to fucking Thailand for four months with Mr. Anthony J. Karge. Four months in an extraordinary place that I don't even think I can fathom completely. It's going to be quite an adventure. I got all of my shots and all of my pills that I need to take to survive over there. I'm going to order mosquito netting soon so that I can be protected while I sleep in some of the more rural areas that we go to (specifically, Cambodia and Vietnam). My grandmother graciously provided me with a brand new laptop that's lightweight and great for travel that I greatly enjoy already. I'll be able to take it to class with me without the power cord. Very nice. We have our plane tickets too, a nice 17 1/2 hour long non-stop flight. It's going to totally suck, but Anthony's dad bought our tickets together, so we're at least sitting next to each other.

Speaking of planes, Anthony and I were invited down to NYC to check out a couple of 2KGames latest games this summer. They paid for us to fly down to check out Bioshock and The Darkness, which both were awesome. We then spent the rest of the day walking around Manhattan, wandering some 40 blocks or so. We were exhausted. One of the highlights of the trip was an aggressive cab driver who drove us back to La Guardia airport and made Anthony and I both nauseated. Now, I have a weak stomach, I'll admit that, but this guy was fucking crazy. I fell asleep during the ride in the hopes that I would wake up and be okay, but I woke up and wanted to hurl, hard. I almost had to ask him to pull over. We went to the bathroom and the smell of it - horrid - I threw up. Barely made it to the toilet. But all in all, it was a good experience.

I'm out of Oswego and staying at home for the longest point in time since last Christmas. It's kind of nice being at home, but a little weird. I don't know. It's strange unpacking all of my stuff just to know that I'm going to pack it all up again in just a few days and I won't be here again for another four months. And then I'm home for another couple of weeks and then I go back to Oswego again for four months. It's like I barely live here anymore. I guess that's not a bad thing considering that I'm going to be 22 in a week or so, but at the same time, it is a weird feeling. It's like watching baseball and seeing Yankees pitchers playing that are younger than me. I actually feel like I'm older than I realize.

This summer was...unexpected. Andrew dying in the beginning of the summer kind of ruined the entire summer. I don't want to blame his death on anything, but I felt like after that I had no motivation to do much of anything. I didn't want to take classes (and didn't) and half the time, I didn't even want to go to work. The only solace I had was that Rita was there for me, but that got all fucked up too after a while. I felt that we were getting a lot closer with each other again after he died and tried to pursue a relationship with her again, sort of pick up the pieces that had fallen apart and try to fix everything, but she couldn't figure out what she wanted and I just ended up fucked in the end. I understand her argument, my only wish is that she could have been more straightforward with me in the beginning having known what I wanted the whole time.

From all that though, I learned that there's a lot more to relationships than what I expected. Having Rita to talk to when I was really heartbroken was more important to me that I thought it would be and it was more attractive than I had ever imagined in to be. I definately want to make sure that, in my next relationship that I can share that bond with someone else because it was truly incredible. I really want someone that I can open up to and share all my crazy fucking thoughts with without an issue.

To fill the time and keep my mind off sad things, I started trying to make a positive effort to hang out with more and more people outside of my circle of friends. I'm really glad I did. Sean and I became really good friends over the course of the summer to the point where we hung out pretty much everyday of the week. I also started hanging out with more people from work. I really always looked forward to working with Sean Berrie, Megan, Nicole, and Melinda. I wish I had spent more time with them in the beginning of the summer, but I'm glad to know that I'm going to be able to spend more time with them when I get back from Thailand. I'm really going to miss all of them a lot.

Living off-campus and having our own place was a fun experience. I really hope Anthony and I can get our own place when we get back from Thailand. The only thing that could have made the house better would be if everyone were still in it, but it was a good time none the less. It's just nice having people come over, having your own room to hang out with, making your own meals, not having to pay for laundry, not having to worry about noise complaints, and not having to walk from a parking lot to the door.

I missed Anthony a lot over the summer. He went off to Poland again and seemed to have a blast. We're meeting up on the 22nd to go get our visas in NYC and I cannot wait. I really want to get my visa without a hassle, but I'm nervous that it's going to get fucked up. We should have done this sooner, for sure, but oh well. I'm sure we'll get it and if we don't, we can take another trip and get it hopefully.

My computer has been freezing lately, so I'm going to format it tonight I think. I bought some DVDs to back shit up since my backup hard drive also died. Oh well. Most of the data was on this computer anyhow.

Eddie Corlew and I hung out a couple of times this week. He has officially retired from Regal, which he and I signified by hanging our shirts upstairs in the projection booth with Brent's old shirt. We also bombed the concession stand with Nerf guns during the set. It was awesome. People were scared, nervous. It was hilarious.

So that's that. Probably won't update this again until I get on the ground in Thailand.

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